Thursday, December 20, 2012

A pattern of being

Knit one, pearl two.  Drop a stitch here and there.  Pick up another.  There’s many ways to get back into a pattern of being.  I just never realized that some patterns could be so far flung and take so long to hook up to again.  Who knew?  I guess you don’t always.  But when I woke up to some things, even the desire to be an artist, it brought me right into a familiar pattern.  What a system.  Everything seems to deepen along the way.   Even the hunger to get started.

My mother gave up on teaching me knitting because I kept losing stitches.  That should have been a sign.  Sure I was only seven or eight at the time.  But I should have known.  Instead, what did I do?  I ran down the street to play.   Now it’s time to weave all the dropped stitches back in.  There’s a few strands as it turns out so it’s not going to be a quick job either.  But it feels good to wake up to these tasks, knowing some of what I must do.

Naturally I can’t speak for everyone, but in general, if something is snagging your spirit and dragging you down, whether it’s a schedule or a program, a person or an element, I think it’s time to take out the cosmos kit and get cracking.  For the most part our bodies respond and produce the biochemicals that we need to function properly.  But when we get run down our rejuvenating ability gets shut down.   We might need a shot of B12 or a certain form of coaxing and motivation to get things rolling again.  Who knows, our push towards a new horizon could simply come from a shift in the winds.  The winds could come along like our spirit returning and nudge us forward.  And then we’ll wonder, is it a weather system or our spirit which hovers around wondering when will we get going? 

Sometimes it seems that change comes easily once you realize that whatever was streaming before is now damned and diverted.  It’s time to break through the walls and let the water come rushing.